Let me introduce myself.
I’m Earle; my wife’s name is Sierra.
I’m chronically ill.
I’m obese, I have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and
diabetes. Sierra is the healthy one in
our family. She almost never goes to the
doctor, is rarely sick, and eats a healthy, balanced diet, while I’m the
original junk food junkie.
On October 2, 2013, Sierra had a massive stroke. Her blood pressure was off the scale (over
300), and she burst blood vessels in her brain.
She was airlifted to Harborview Medical Center, where she underwent
emergency surgery to remove part of her skull and cauterize bleeding blood
vessels. Testing revealed evidence that
she had long standing problems with high blood pressure. As one surgeon said, getting your blood
pressure tested once a year is not diagnostic, it doesn't tell you anything
except that at that particular moment you do or don't have high blood pressure.
There are several ways to find out if you have high blood
pressure. One is to go see doctor. That is
what Sierra did, once every couple of years, and her test results were always
normal or “pre-hypertension”, 120’s to 130’s.
A better way is to use the free testing machine that is available in
many stores. Every time you walk past
one, stop and sit down for a few minutes and test your pressure. If your top number is over 135 more than
once, you need to check with a doctor, sooner rather than later. They may not do anything until it is over
140, but you need to get busy controlling it.
Another way is to spend $15-$20 and get an inexpensive automatic wrist
cuff blood pressure monitor. They are
not terribly accurate, but if you take it with you when you see your doctor or
when you use a tester at the store you can compare readings, and if you test
yourself daily at the same time, you should be able to keep an eye on your
blood pressure.
Sierra came out of the ICU 10 days later paralyzed on the
left side, but able to speak and see and hear and comprehend what was
happening. Good thing too.
You see, Sierra and I had only been married a bit over 2
years. Because of my health issues, when
we were married I made sure that Sierra was listed as my next of kin, as the
beneficiary on my policies, etc. But we
hadn’t worried too much about her paperwork, after all, she is healthy! And Sierra had a legal name change when we
got married (her name was not ‘Sierra’), and much of her paperwork still
carried her birth name on it.
Sierra recovered enough to be able to give me a Durable
Power of Attorney, to file paperwork to make me her beneficiary on her
policies. We started getting her name
changed on all of her paperwork, and adding my name onto her accounts.
After a couple of months, Sierra passed away on December 19,
2013. As I write this, I have had a
month of working on finishing up all the paperwork. I’m still finding things that need to be
taken care of, but I have all the paperwork that I need to complete it.
So why am I writing this?
Like many people, we had not adequately planned for the future. Almost daily we passed a sign on our street
advertising “Aging Options”. We joked
with each other about what kind of options there are, after all, you grow old
and you die, right? And we were planning
on going together, one wasn’t supposed to leave without the other. We had light conversations about what to do
if something happened, but we never sat down and looked at “what if”
scenarios. Sierra was barely 51, I’m a
couple years older, we are still young.
We don’t need to worry about this stuff right now, plenty of time later. And we both knew better; we both had
attended, separately and together, seminars put on by our employers dealing
with this subject. We had even talked to
her parents about putting together a plan (they did). But we never did anything ourselves! We talked about doing something (“next
Saturday we should sit down and talk…”) but something else always came up that
was more important at the time.
We were, however, prepared for one thing. We knew where she was going when she died; we
knew that she was going to heaven, to be with her Master and Savior. You see, Sierra had repented of her sins and
asked Jesus to be her Master. The Bible
says that “All have sinned and fallen short”.
All of us have broken at least one of the 10 Commandments. All of us have at some point in our lives
considered some “thing” to be more important than God. All of us have worshipped something other
than God, whether it was money or things or other people. Most of us have not shown honor to our
parents at least once. Most of us have
not committed murder, but Jesus said that the intent of the law included anger,
and most of us have been guilty of that.
Many of us have not committed adultery, but Jesus said that the intent
of the law covered lust, and there are few who can say that they have never
lusted after another. Do I need to
continue? Who has not coveted what your
neighbor has? Or stolen a pencil?
Sierra had repented of her sin. This is more than just saying “I’m sorry” and
paying penance. There is no penance
great enough to pay for any sin other than a life. Yes, God demands that you pay for your sin
with your life. Death is the penalty for
sin. Repentance is admission of your sin
to God, and a determination on your part that you will not commit that sin
again. And when you repent, you can
accept the gift that Jesus gave of his life.
Jesus had no sin, the only person to have ever lived in complete obedience
to the commandments. And he died to pay
the penalty for our sin, but ONLY if you accept the gift. And the gift is a conditional gift. The Bible says that we are slaves to sin, but
when we repent, we become slaves to Jesus.
And Jesus does not accept grudging slaves, he only accepts willing
slaves, slaves that obey him out of love.
Sierra didn't have a religion. She had a relationship with Jesus. She loved Jesus, and wanted to please him
more than anything else. She wanted to
please Jesus more than she wanted to please me, more than she wanted to please
herself, more than life. She was looking
forward to being with Jesus. Some people
have the idea that heaven will be boring.
Sierra knew that heaven would be exciting, because she would get to be
with the one person who she loved more than anything else. She was looking forward to going home.
Sierra loved “Action Points”; here they are:
1. Check your blood
pressure. And I would add, check your
cholesterol and hbA1c. Many drugstores
now offer the blood test for as little as $35 each. The Cholesterol and hbA1c tests give you a
summary of the condition of your blood, for most people once a year is
sufficient unless those tests show a problem.
Personally, because of my health, I get mine tested every 3 months or
so.
2. Sit down with your
spouse or significant other or son or daughter or whoever will need to make
decisions should you become incapacitated.
Make sure that they are OK with those decisions. Write a document that details what you want done
under certain circumstances. I was
totally blind-sided when I discovered that I needed to make decisions for
Sierra when she was in a coma, and I just “winged” it. Not a good place to put someone. Sit down with them, talk about it, write it
out. Make sure that they understand and
are OK with your instructions. Perhaps
you do not want extraordinary measures done to keep you alive. Will they be OK with telling the doctor to
“pull the plug”? If you are
incapacitated then you need to be confident that the person you designate will
follow your instructions.
3. Have you written and notarized a Durable Power of
Attorney? A “fill in the blank” form is
available online, just search for the one for your state. Sierra’s employer required a specific one for
their files, we did that and also the state generic one. And it must be notarized. We had to have a notary come to Sierra
because she could not travel, that cost $60.
But you can get a form notarized for $10 if you go to your bank, or to a
mailbox store, sometimes free from your employer. They usually charge once per document, so if
you make 3 identical copies of the Durable Power of Attorney at one time they
will charge you one fee.
4. Review your
insurance policies. Have you updated
your beneficiaries?
5. Review your
emergency contacts. Sierra’s employer
called her brother, who then called me when she had her stroke, because I
wasn't the emergency contact.
6. Get your life
right with God. A good place to start is
by reading the Gospel of Mark and the book of Romans. You can read these online at
www.biblegateway.com or at https://net.bible.org. Find a believer, visit a church. Talk to me.